well it started off bad then it got a little better then it got a lot worse then it got so much worse than before you said I should take my medication antipsychotics and stop drinking now I feel grand I feel numb I’m feeling feelings I’m feeling love and I’m sorry about your grandpa I wish there was more that I could do and I know your family’s fucked up but man my family’s fucked up too it’s one thing to feel uncomfortable it’s another to hate the blood in your veins it’s one thing to get disowned it’s another to change your name and I’m sorry that it took me so long to finally understand that the feelings you were feeling made you feel oh ho so bad there's no such thing as an overreaction it’s just a very strong reaction I feel I very strongly react in almost every situation and I wish that I didn’t well I started off good then I started to slip up in fact I’m slipping up right now sitting in my bathroom with a beer bottle in my mouth now I feel grand I feel violent and overwhelmed watch me try and take care of other people I can’t even take care of myself and I’m sorry about your grandpa I wish there was more that I could do and I know your family’s fucked up but man my family’s fucked up too it’s one thing to feel uncomfortable it’s another to hate the blood in your veins it’s one thing to get disowned it’s another to change your name and I’m sorry that it took me so long to finally understand that the feelings you were feeling made you feel oh ho so bad there's no such thing as an overreaction it’s just a very strong reaction I feel I very strongly react in almost every situation and I wish that I didn’t but maybe one day I’ll be at sundance wearing shoes without shoelaces 24 hour surveillance I hope my friends all come and visit me but maybe one day I'll be at sundance wearing shoes without shoelaces 24 hour surveillance I hope my friends all come and visit me I’m not an empathetic person but I wish that I was I spend 3 years at college trying to prove I could feel something but numb and I’m sorry about your grandpa I wish there was more that I could do and I know your family’s fucked up but man my family’s fucked up too it’s one thing to feel uncomfortable it’s another to hate the blood in your veins it’s one thing to get disowned it’s another to change your name and I’m sorry that it took me so long to finally understand that the feelings you were feeling made you feel oh ho so bad there's no such thing as an overreaction it’s just a very strong reaction I feel I very strongly react in almost every situation and I wish that I didn’t