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she's just a bratty little rich kid
she went to Richmond
see her talking to that dick well that's her boyfriend
and I can't stand this any longer I am going out of my mind
everyone wants to be your best friend
when they find out that you're running out of time
everyone you know is leaving you behind to wallow in
the dust storms and the snow
the meteor show glow of the sunrise on the desert
see the hole in the fence where the cat slips through
see the empty beer cars that my neighbors threw into my yard
before they moved back to Santa Fe
I'll move up to the mountains make less than minimum wage
working six days a week for eight hours a day
everyone you know is leaving you behind to try and make new friends
but they won't be like your old friends
no, they'll probably be much cooler than us
you won't find us around here anymore
cuz everyone moved three hours away
maybe when you graduate you'll move up to Denver
then everything will be the same
everyone you know is leaving you behind to wallow in
the dust storms and the snow
the meteor show glow of the sunrise on the desert
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well I was seventeen and she was eighteen
she bought me cigarettes and pipes
then I turned eighteen, I didn't need her
so we said our goodbyes
then I was nineteen and you were twenty-one
you bought me thirty packs of PBR
but I'm still twenty so I still need you
but you're so very far
if I could say one thing to you it would be
please come home
cuz I've drank too much tonight
I don't wanna be alone
I was your go-to you were my leafy greens
you kept me healthy when I didn't wanna be
and now without you here
there's a pack of camel crush on my coffee table
if I could say one thing to you it would be
please come home
cuz I've got this ounce of weed
I don't wanna be alone
but I know you're off to bigger and better things
just don't forget about Ryan and me
I know you're off to better things
and I'll be twenty she'll still be eighteen
she'll have to fight on her own
but you can't make her scream hallelujah
unless you leave her alone
if I could say one thing to you it would be
I'm coming home
but I've driven too long tonight on the same goddamn road
but I know you're off to bigger and better things
just don't forget about you and me
I know you're off to better things
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no one's ever got the money
no one's ever got the time
they're all stuck staring at brick walls
practicing their line
and I'm afraid that all their futures will be all too bleak
I'm scared for my friend's futures and I'm scared for me
but I see you shiver from the cold in the desert
have another blanket now have another drink
cuz getting fucked up's easy when you feel like you'll never
get to see your family or friends, reach your dreams
but I swear on my life that I won't let this be the last time
I go to bed and wake up feeling worse
but everyone around is getting angrier and bitter
sometimes I think it's better that I'm just a temporary curse on you
I seem to never have the money
feel I never have the time
I'm always looking for a way out
I'm always scared and getting high
and I'm afraid to go three months clean
I'm scared I'll get too angry
I'm scared I'll get too mean
but I see you shiver from the cold in the mountains
have another blanket have another drink
cuz getting fucked up's easy when you're not around your friends
and now you're feeling so alone thanks to me
but I swear on my life that I won't let this be the last time
I go to bed and wake up feeling worse than last night
I'm always getting angry, I'm always feeling bitter
I just need to find a cure
when I come home you lay in bed
say nothing say it all I'm a joke
but everything is spinning by the end of my shower
trip and stumble to find my way home
getting used to leaving more comfortable than staying
the only real life I have is hiding in these notes I play to
talk about the feeling that I never feel like talking about
now I think I've said too much I think I'd better go
but I swear on my life that I'll let this be the last time
I go to bed and wake up feeling oh so sad
and I'll stop getting angry stop proving my mom right
leave them all behind and find you and me a home
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if you deliver pizza on the north side of town
chances are you're not gunna get tipped
cuz people who are living on the north side of town
they all live paycheck to paycheck
but you just ordered fifty dollars of pizza
you can afford to give me a dollar
you just bought five seventy-five cent cups of ranch
and I can see the money in your wallet
so don't forget to tip your delivery driver
especially if it's raining or there's snow
cuz we delivery drivers are a vengeful bunch
and we know where you call home
so don't forget to tip your delivery driver
especially if it's raining or there's snow
cuz we delivery drivers are a vengeful bunch
and we know where you call home
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everything in its right place
everyone that I left behind to swallow their pride
and they choke and die and asphyxiate
do you know CPR cuz I don't
I was born in the mountains next to the big white Y
everything after that turned into a status sign
they called you a savior they called you brave
said you could have it all if you just stayed in place
and what happens next you won't believe your eyes
I threw it all in the trash so I could say fuck sometimes
said you'd do it all anything the good lord asks
so you could have it all six kids and land
and now I'm moving
I'm packing up my things
I'll buy a new car
and stop whining
and I thought you'd be doing so much better
than you're doing right now
with prying eyes, I will refresh the page
see your faith is slowing you down
so go and marry taylor tanner
go and serve your god
and I will be standing here for you
when you realize you're all that you got
everything in its right place
everyone that I left behind to swallow their pride
and they choke and die and asphyxiate
do you know CPR cuz I don't
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I'm gunna buy a gun
I'm gunna fill it with everything I think I know
being in love and being free
and I'm gunna put it to my head
I'm gunna wish that I had died in a car crash
earlier this week
but I'm gunna drive up the west coast
I'm gunna get all Bonnie and Clyde
I will sit in the driver's seat
and you will sit in the passenger's side
I feel my eyelids getting heavy as the drugs kick in
I'll tell everyone to leave and go play playstation
cuz it's too damn hard to try and figure out
if I'm a total fucking dick or if I'm just screaming my lungs out
for nothing
for nothing at all
for nothing for nothing at all
I wanna go up to the mountain
I wanna get closer to god
if god is lots of acoustic guitars and weed
but I think I'm scheduled to go home
and I'm gunna wish that I had died in a plane crash
later this week
but I'm gunna fly up the midwest
I'm gunna get all flight ninety-three
and I will watch as the cities grow smaller
in the pleasant view from the window seat
I feel my eyelids getting heavy as the drugs kick in
but the plane is taking off so I'll just strap on in
cuz it's too damn hard to try and figure out
if the xanax is kicking in or if my nerves are kicking out of my head
of my head
of my head
of my head
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I'm scared of my future
I'm scared of my life
I have this vision that I'm working in a gas station in Oregon
minimum wage until I die
it's like middle school to high school
all over again
I'd better buy new shoes so I can make new friends
but every three years its the same old game
I'm the quiet kid in a brand new place
it'll take six months for me to make friends
it'll take six more for me to even like them
I'm ashamed of the present
I'm ashamed of the past
cuz I've done things that I shouldn't have done
and at the time I didn't think they were all that bad
but everyone is moving forward
I am feeling left behind
I am afraid of becoming my mother
more than double half the time
but every three years its the same old game
I'm the quiet kid in a brand new place
it'll take six months for me to make friends
it'll take six more for me to even like them
time's up I'm just a snapchat story to you
I know that I don't belong here
I'll fade into the background by the time you forget about senior year
I'm scared of the future
long after I'm dead
will you remember these songs will you remember these books
the only memory of went on in my head
but everyone is moving forward
I am feeling left behind
I am afraid of becoming my father
every time I look in his eyes
but every three years its the same old game
I'm the quiet kid in a brand new place
it'll take six months for me to make friends
it'll take six more for me to even like them
time's up I'm just a snapchat story to you
I know that I don't belong here
I'll fade into the background by the time you forget about senior yeartime's up I'm just a snapchat story to you
I know that I don't belong here
I'll fade into the background by the time you forget about senior year
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every so often I get this strange feeling
it feels like a needle piercing my neck at the base
where my head meets my shoulder and I'm growing older
I'm getting more mature
I will leave this high school ghost town behind
leave it in my rear view mirror
everyone I know will move up northwest
and talk mad shit about the town I am living in
and I will lose contact with everyone I know
like Garret and Jared and Justin Breese
and honestly, it's making me happier than I ever though possible
I thought I left high school on broad street
looks like it followed me home
sideways glances talk shit get hit
he said she said, cheater secret
sideways glances talk shit get hit
he said she said, cheater secret
you're the gossip queen
petty princess of everything no one cared about
but they listen so closely
I was mr. mean I only did you wrong
sang songs about it and put them on youtube and facebook and twitter and soundcloud
screamed them at parties way too loud
and everyone I know will stay in town
and talk mad shit about the things I am singing
and I will lose contact with everyone I know
like Christine and Steven and Justin Breese
and honestly, it's making me happier than I ever though possible
I thought I left high school on broad street
looks like it followed me home
sideways glances talk shit get hit
he said she said, cheater secret
sideways glances talk shit get hit
he said she said, cheater secret
everything is turning into scream one two and three
different plot different characters but the same basic ending
everything is turning into scream one two and three
different plot different character but the same basic ending
everything is turning into scream one two and three
different plot different character but the same basic ending
everything is turning into scream one two and three
different plot different character but the same basic ending
the shaman of drinking my middle school crush
the way that I laugh when I'm doing drugs
and I know you'll never leave me
the stupidest reasons are the reasons I cry
but I held my tears when my papa died
and I know you'll never leave me
the shaman of drinking my middle school crush
the way that I laugh when I'm doing drugs
and I know you'll never leave me
the stupidest reasons are the reasons I cry
but I held my tears when my papa died
and I know you'll never leave me
the shaman of drinking my middle school crush
the way that I laugh when I'm doing drugs
and I know you'll never leave me
the stupidest reasons are the reasons I cry
but I held my tears when my papa died
and I know you'll never leave me
the shaman of drinking my middle school crush
the way that I laugh when I'm doing drugs
and I know you'll never leave me
the stupidest reasons are the reasons I cry
but I held my tears when my papa died
and I know you'll never leave me
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released May 15, 2017